Friday, September 01, 2006
i guess im just hurt.
hurt by your unwillingness to share your problems with me.
even i feel stupid being upset over such small matters.
but.it hurts you know!
when you know someone is troubled.
and you so badly want to help.
and that person just says "no nothing im ok"
ughh.
go ahead then.
dont bother about me.
its ok! im probably not worth your time sharing your problems.
ok i dont mean to sound so hurtful.but..sighh.from an alltime high to alltime low.
great.
turning to food as a form of solace once again.
no wonder im turning fat.
ecaco chiobus! (: (uh ok lacking Lx2.sorry you werent there!)
got caught in a bad picture while slacking in the council room!hahah
proof that im not the only one slacking in the council room!tee hee
shue and dawnie!
during ny 89th anniversary dinner! 404! (or rather the few 404 pple who went.hahah)
you make me smile! zhi darling!! ((:
um yeahh.just some random pics.hehe
to make me happy. (:
mewantcookie @ 11:11 AM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
it's been awhile!
haha im back.
just came back from a farewell dinner for my sister. it's so hard to say goodbye!);
it's gonna be so damn hard on the real day ):
anw,
3 new babies!haha arriving next yr feb/march period(;
coolios aye. 2 cousins and 1 auntie!(;
haha loads of catching up today, and exchange of life stories. i like.
anw, before that cca forum. total waste of time.
anyhoo, back to work! CIAO
mewantcookie @ 10:29 PM
it's been awhile!
haha im back.
just came back from a farewell dinner for my sister. it's so hard to say goodbye!);
it's gonna be so damn hard on the real day ):
anw,
3 new babies!haha arriving next yr feb/march period(;
coolios aye. 2 cousins and 1 auntie!(;
haha loads of catching up today, and exchange of life stories. i like.
anw, before that cca forum. total waste of time.
anyhoo, back to work! CIAO
mewantcookie @ 10:29 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
hello!
hurr qt a bit of stuff happened yest.
although it wasnt the most exciting birthday ever, it was ok.
and thanks to all who wished me a happy birthday! im rly touched you guys rmbed! (:
those who didnt, but wanted to.. thanks all the same!hehe.
alright.now lets look at what ive learnt yest/
lesson no. ONE.
do not eat too much comfort food when youre feeling tired and slpy after a very long day. esp not if youre at your friend's hse for a slpover. you'll get HIGH even without alcohol!hahaha.pam, daphy and i went NUTS! the three times we went super duper super high (to the pt when we were absolutely gg crazy alr) were 1.watching japan toilet prank and hard gay.OMG.watch japan toilet prank if you hvent alr on youtube. its the most insane prank and the funniest ever!hehhee. 2. playing with pam's phone and calling her XXXX.HEHEHHEE.ok inside joke. =X 3.pamela sia gg crazy and making it seem like i have the HOTS for mr ng's butt!OMG.haha.she major spammed pple on my msn contact list saying that his butt was hot and all that.put my nick as proclaiming to love his ass.and telling mr ng that i say he's verryy cutee!omg.SO NOT TRUE.haha.but it was hilarious.
lesson no. TWO.
it is NOT fun spending half your birthday cleaning the council room and sewing banners tgt to keep the lightings web for MAF. you get annoyed easily and VERY SIAN. yup. this is the most sewing ive ever done in my entire life!like omg.
lesson no. THREE.
love your council.
hehe.yupyup i love you guys! thanks ecaco for the cake! (:
and thank you 33rd for singing me the birthday song as one big family!
it was so touching to have the entire council singing me the birthday song...AWWW
lesson no. FOUR.
watch how you walk no matter how tired you are.
I NEARLY SPRAINED BOTH MY ANKLES.
save me!
it was like, i was walking down the stairs when i accidentally turned my left ankle. and because of that i tripped and turned my other ankle as well! BLEH. i was in pain and i exclaimed out loud!got the other pple so worried for me! but thank goodness i didnt sprain it. it was so close! pheww. but now my ankles are still aching. grr.
lesson no. FIVE.
do not go to town in paint-stained PE ATTIRE! ): allison, claire, kahleng and i felt sooo zi bei!hahah.its pathetic when you see all the well-dressed pple in town and look at yourself and see.....what else but paint-stained hwa chong pe attire.hahah
alright.lessons shall end for now.
my sis wants to use the laptop and there's smth wrong with the com.so i have to stop now.
shall continue my teachings another day!
hahaha.
mewantcookie @ 3:34 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Aimer
by Roméo et Juliette
Album: Roméo et JulietteRoméo et Juliette:
R: Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
Aimer c'est monter si haut
Et toucher les ailes des oiseaux
Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
J: Aimer c'est voler le temps
Aimer c'est rester vivant
Et brûler au cœur d'un volcan
Aimer c'est c'qu'y a de plus grand
R,J: Aimer c'est plus fort que tout
Donner le meilleur de nous
Aimer et sentir son cœur
Aimer pour avoir moins peur
R, J, Chœurs: Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
Aimer c'est monter si haut
Et toucher les ailes des oiseaux
Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
Aimer c'est voler le temps
Aimer c'est rester vivant
Et brûler au cœur d'un volcan
Aimer c'est c'qu'y a de plus grand
Aimer c'est brûler ses nuits
Aimer c'est payer le prix
Et donner un sens à sa vie
Aimer c'est brûler ses nuits
Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
Aimer c'est monter si haut
Et toucher les ailes des oiseaux
Aimer c'est ce qu'y a d'plus beau
Aimer...
this song is just so pretty (:
ok ive had it for a really long time but i was just looking through all my songs and i saw it and remembered how much i used to like it!
and so i listened to it and...
fell back in love with it again!
haha.i aimer this song?
ok.aimer means to love so basically what i just said doesnt make sense=X
sighh.i think what im feeling now is guilt.
is it?when i read her blog..and saw the songs that she was relating to..it really made me feel really bad.
thats if she really is talking about what im thinking laa. hmm
the worst part is that that very song..was what was going through my head incessantly back then.
back when our situations were reversed. back when i was in her shoes.
she seems so sad. indirectly, or maybe even directly..im to blame!
i know it was your choice, but. that doesn't change the fact that SHE has to bear the consequences of YOUR decision. and what about me? am i just being led on? by your decisions? sighh.
its there, affecting me.
she's there, affecting me too.
there are so many other factors.so many barriers.
how are things going to work out properly?when i can't help but keep thinking about her role in all this too!
and the guilt. OH THE GUILT! sighh. its really horrid.
till now, no matter what you say, im not entirely convinced.im touched, yes.but promises are promises.to see you breaking your promise to another isn't very reassuring to me. oh how now!
i know i won't be able to cope.
but i don't wish to give it up.
not anything.
grr.what to do what to do!
mewantcookie @ 12:47 AM
Saturday, July 29, 2006
hello there!
i dont really know what i want to blog about.hmm.today's just been a very restless day for me.
i keep waiting..and looking..and waiting..and checking...
to no avail.
sigh.
im really wasting my time when i ought to have fully converted to become a full-time mugger!
i dont even know why im holding on.there wasnt even anything to hold on to in the first place!
what an idiot i am.
its just not so easy to let go just like that you know!
i wish i could pretend none of this ever happened.
i could have saved myself from a lot more misery earlier on.
but noo.i just had to let myself fall back into the trap. and worse still.
i fell deeper...
this really sucks.
i cant seem to concentrate!
its as if im waiting for some kind of miracle.
which technically speaking, i dont wish to happen as well!
do you know how tormenting it is?
to want something and yet know you're not supposed to want it, you cant want it and your life will be even more screwed up if you do have it?????argh.
how i wish life could be a fairytale...-joce
mewantcookie @ 7:50 PM
Friday, July 14, 2006
omg today has been a damn eventful dayy
first new pe tcher who is qt abve average looking.
and then catching up with deedee(: i loved the prata and tehpeng!
anw, after dat, as we were waiting for the bus to come, then this indian woman came out of the 961 bus and then approached us to ask for 3.80 cos she said the bus driver is blind. heartless and uncaring because she told him that she lost her ezlink card and that she needed the money to go home which is at jalan kayu.
then she described her route home from 6th ave to toa payoh to dunno where then to jalan kayu. wahlao.den lucky dee was there to save me.
she nudged me and then told the lady"sorry i dont think we canhelp you"
then guess what the dejected looking indian woman sat at the other bus bench and dint even ask the rest of the pple at the bus stop who werent wearing school uniform!!!! like wth. she think we wear sch uniform got no brains very easy to bully isit!
anw, then another freaky incident.cos i had to change bus at the buona vista mrt station. then i was listening to my mp3 when this malay man came up to me from behind and tapped me on my shoulder. he was like "excuse me i jst fell down and my ezlink card got no money, can you give me 50cents to take a ride home." okay whats this stoopid excuse about the ezlink card man. and i htink its cos im wearing sch u and they think i very easy to buly thats why they approach me. and i saw him approaching this angmoh couple too. wahlao! damn irritating. then guess wad. he ltr asked me" where you stay ah? what bus you take one?"
wahlao i was damn petrified i jst walked away and hopped onto the next cab and cabbed home. waste my money onlyyyy!!
i think singapore is gettingscarrier and scarrier.
i vow i will nvr take bus home aone / take the lift alone again.
mewantcookie @ 7:28 PM
Saturday, July 01, 2006
wow. its really been a long time since either of us blogged.
but i guess im more guilty cos mo was the last of the two of us to blog.heh
i was lazy and i was busy! those are two v v v good excuses! (:
right.who am i kiddin, man. hee.
btw, the blocks were horrid. absolutely horrid.
i wonder why i even studied so hard for.
im probly screwed up alr anw.
(altho im praying damn hard i wont fail. HOPING!!!but chances are kinda slim, huh. but no harm praying and wishing upon a falling star! (:)
ok i feel retarded.
but its after blocks! im excused! (: cos my brains were frayed in the process you see.
to quote mr ang moley: "from thurs i ll be a free man. from wed i ll be a dead man"
how true.how true.......I DONT WANT TO GET MY PAPERS BACK! pls keep them. dont give them back to me.i dont want to know how i did.
oh and just for your info, for physics paper...i totally forgot abt the errata.so i used the wrong value to do my calculations. DAMNIT!wasted precious few marks.argh.
ahh forget it.blocks are over anw. cant do anything abt it alr.
oh but i was quite amused by shu. who wrote 'sale' each time she wanted to write 'sail' for the stupid sail question for physics blocks.damn funny.hee
i went out shopping today!omg
i feel guilty.
to say i bought a lot would be wrong. i didnt.
to say i spent a lot would also be wrong. i didnt.
but to say i didnt buy much is also wrong!!!
damnit. i didnt buy too much but i bought enough to fill myself with guilt.
im so sorry wai kl and shu! i know i made you guys wait real long for me to make up my mind.
hehe.im like super indecisive.
but i had a fun time today (:
and tmr's nanyang fun fair!
at least fourohfour s gg tgt.
at least, i think so?
it'll only be fun if we all go tgt.hai
ooh.but basically my parents and my two younger siblings are gg too.
HAH! earlier than me tho. cos my younger sis wants to go ny.she went for the dsa test.hmm.and my cousin was selling my parents the tickets too.so i guess my parents are bringing my siblings there.haha.with like super a lot of tickets.hee
cos my dad bought from both my cousin and me. and he paid for my own ticket too.HEHEH.
ok im rambling.
i dont really know why im blogging now.considering how no one reads this blog. but then that could be because we dont blog anw. hehe.
yeah well. this is it.
my first blog entry in more than a month i think? =X
oh and mo, im not gg for chua this sun.
im gg out with my parents. to uh, malaysia?LOL.
dont ask. hehe. theyve never brought me to malaysia before la! apart from when i was one or two years old.
heh. which is why last dec when i went for the tourney it felt like it was my first time there. =X
okie. shall go and uh.go on doing other random stuff.
im bored.but i dont know what to do and im feeling lazy.
but im so glad im not mugging.
whee.
-joce
mewantcookie @ 12:44 AM
